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Secret lines of communication and intelligence tradecraft sustained under extreme pressure.
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The Secret Journal of a U.S. Hostage in Iran
The most detailed first-person account kept by any of the 52 American hostages—more than one thousand pages, written in secret and hidden for nearly forty years.
444 Days · Tehran, 1979–1981
Former CIA Station Chief · U.S. Air Force Veteran
From the Journal
Tehran, July 22, 1980
“I have been giving thought to what best characterizes being a hostage. Is it the lack of freedom or is it the waiting? I have concluded that waiting describes it. It is unending waiting. At times the waiting can be withering.”
The Story
On November 4, 1979, Iranian militants seized the U.S. Embassy in Tehran. Among those taken was Michael H. Howland—held not at the Embassy but at Iran's Ministry of Foreign Affairs alongside Ambassador Bruce Laingen and Victor Tomseth.
Each day, in secret, Howland wrote in a journal. Observations, intelligence, and 444 days of captivity were hidden in letters that no captor ever found—and remained hidden for nearly four decades before becoming this book.
Hidden Lines is a daily, intimate record of the Iran Hostage Crisis from the inside: a story of endurance, covert communication, dark humor, and quiet defiance.
Why This Book
Howland's position—separated from the Embassy, inside the Ministry of Foreign Affairs—gave him access and perspective no other hostage possessed.
Secret lines of communication and intelligence tradecraft sustained under extreme pressure.
A profoundly human testament to fear, determination, resistance, and endless waiting.
More than one thousand pages preserved for forty years—unmatched in scope, detail, and intimacy.
Praise for Hidden Lines
“And one of my favorite books of the year: Michael Howland's Hidden Lines. Mike was one of the diplomats who endured the Iran Hostage Crisis, and this is the riveting, frightening, and ultimately uplifting story of his 444 days in captivity.”
MICHAEL MORELLFormer Deputy Director and twice Acting Director
Central Intelligence Agency
Michael’s Book Blog · Middleburg Books
Reader Reviews
“Howland shows how courage, optimism, creativity, and love contribute to making the best of an unendurable situation. The story is well paced, and his emotional reactions make it deeply meaningful.”
“An amazing story of courage, resilience and survival. Timely, given where we are with Iran today. A must-read.”
“Mike brings a deeply personal perspective to an awful moment in our history, giving the reader an inside view of what captivity in Iran meant—and the strength and grit required to endure it.”
“The book sheds light on the day-to-day mental, emotional, spiritual and physical toll of captivity. I couldn’t go on with my day until I found out what happened next.”
“Terrifyingly captivating—gripping and difficult to put down.”
“A fascinating and incredible tale of courage, perseverance and grace under pressure. Howland takes the reader inside the gritty reality of captivity while revealing how he secretly communicated with Washington using cryptography. Drawing on his extraordinary contemporaneous journal, Hidden Lines is both an important firsthand account of the Iran hostage crisis and a compelling story of faith, courage and unsinkable optimism.”
“A page-turner. I read it cover to cover in less than two days. Well written and suspenseful, Howland’s account of his 444 days in captivity could be the basis for a must-see film.”
Events & Appearances
Author Appearance & Talk
Tioga, Pennsylvania
In Conversation with Michael Morell
5:30 p.m. · The Hill School · Middleburg, Virginia
Presented by Middleburg Books and The Hill School
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