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Secret lines of communication and intelligence tradecraft sustained under extreme pressure.
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The Secret Journal of a U.S. Hostage in Iran
The most detailed first-person account kept by any of the 52 American hostages—more than one thousand pages, written in secret and hidden for nearly forty years.
444 Days · Tehran, 1979–1981
Former CIA Station Chief · U.S. Air Force Veteran

From the Journal
Tehran, July 22, 1980
“I have been giving thought to what best characterizes being a hostage. Is it the lack of freedom or is it the waiting? I have concluded that waiting describes it. It is unending waiting. At times the waiting can be withering.”
The Story
On November 4, 1979, Iranian militants seized the U.S. Embassy in Tehran. Among those taken was Michael H. Howland—held not at the Embassy but at Iran's Ministry of Foreign Affairs alongside Ambassador Bruce Laingen and Victor Tomseth.
Each day, in secret, Howland wrote in a journal. Observations, intelligence, and 444 days of captivity were hidden in letters that no captor ever found—and remained hidden for nearly four decades before becoming this book.
Hidden Lines is a daily, intimate record of the Iran Hostage Crisis from the inside: a story of endurance, covert communication, dark humor, and quiet defiance.
Why This Book
Howland's position—separated from the Embassy, inside the Ministry of Foreign Affairs—gave him access and perspective no other hostage possessed.
Secret lines of communication and intelligence tradecraft sustained under extreme pressure.
A profoundly human testament to fear, determination, resistance, and endless waiting.
More than one thousand pages preserved for forty years—unmatched in scope, detail, and intimacy.
Three five-star reviews on Amazon
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